time does indeed fly, so speedy...!!
...and guess what is so special about February?
Too many things, I must say. Apart from the feelings that time flies, i just realized that so much happened in a year time. Actually, it tooks so long intense and diverse that I, myself, can't simply believe that I had done so many things, yet they all together combined feel like going so quickly. Besides the core concerns that I always embrace ; health, work, spirit, friends, 'angel' (last not really sure necessary in that order :p), I also worked on a lot more other things.
Stories started from Singapore and ended at Medan -my hometown. What a real journey and indeed life is a journey. My sister got married. I'm not in a jealous way even I feel more excitement when helped her marriage preparation. I always happy for her, my lovely sister ever.
February is not about valentine's day. It is also about my birthday. Turning a year older is not always easy to deal with. What still i can't do is to appreciate the present and cherish the future. Sometimes i am affraid of getting older and that i am losing my youth. As i thinking that much fear I have in my mind and heart so make me much feel tired with this youth-ness. However, getting older, I believe, is a blessing for some. When i can learn and try to be wiser.
Sometimes I am so jealous seeing other younger -close older- people succeeded in so many ways, easily. They could get everything they want without having made so much efforts. The other ways, I also thought and I wished I could go back to the past and did something differently -take a chance and studied of economics for example- or I had known of the future as it is today and I could have taken totally different paths. But i must to be realistic, this is my path and this is my way. I realized that this is my challange and I gotta think differently. The opportunities are scattered in front of me and I have to grab them and use them.
So, there is nothing that I regret of my past 29 years of life. It is time to move on and its time to be a better man. To be part of dynamic change, surely to be more happy, making plan a thing that i haven't thought -like a married life. And for sure, revolutionize my paths and innovate my road that i'd never seen before...
Note : Hey Angel, thanks again for this year birthday cake!
Jay
